lost...

been dreaming...

Boy: I need someone to talk to.
Girl: I'm always here for you.
Boy: I know.
Girl: What's wrong?
Boy: I like her so much.
Girl: Talk to her.
Boy: I don't know. She won't ever like me.
Girl: Don't say that...you're amazing.
Boy: I just want her to know how I feel.
Girl: Then tell her.
Boy: She won't like me.
Girl: How do you know that?
Boy: I can just tell her...
Girl: Well just tell her.
Boy: What should I say?
Girl: Tell her how much you like her.
Boy: I tell her daily.
Girl: What do you mean?
Boy: I'm always with her...I love her.
Girl: I know how you feel. I have the same problem...but he'll never like me.
Boy: Wait. Who do you like?
Girl: Oh, some boy.
Boy: Oh, she won't like me either.
Girl: She does.
Boy: How do you know?
Girl: Because who wouldn't like you?
Boy: You.
Girl: You're wrong. I love you.
Boy: I love you too.
Girl: So are you going to talk to her?
Boy: I just did.

at last.. lost n forever

How I wish I did not know her..

How I wish I did not see her everyday

How I wish she would be just no one for me

Everything seems to be clear on this night

Tonight...everything will be lost forever

Tonight...she would just disappear

Tonight...I will stop thinking about her

Tonight...I will not be hurt anymore

Let her be her and let me be me ...

Simply the way it is meant to be...

Hopefully we will find our own happiness in our separate way..

In the end ...I'm just a fool

Bukan seperti itu ...

bukan ku pinta untuk merasai rasa sedih ini...
hanya ku tidak mampu menidakkan rasa syg dan suka yg memakan hati ini

apakan daya...aku... untuk menidakan perasaan sedih ini..
yang terbuku lagi terpahat di hati..

Mungkin aku hanya berdaya untuk berhasrat ...bermimpi...
hanya sekadar memberi kekuatan untuk aku
kekuatan untuk menempuhi kesuraman hati ini..

aku cuba
cuba untuk melupakan rasa ini
cuba untuk meredah kesuraman hati ini
namun rasa ini tetap tidak berganjak dari hati

biarlah ungkapan yg tersirat bergaris akhir di hati...
biarlah rs kecewa terpendam dalam hati..
biarlah ku menangung semuanya
kerna ak bersalah menyayangi kmu...

ku percaya
Syg dan Cinta itu tidak pernah meminta..
ia memberi...
namun cinta itu membawa perderitaan..
tetapi tidak skali ia berdendam...

where do the shattered pieces lie?

i really don't know what is happening to me
i really don't know what is going on me
i really don't how what are my feelings rite now
cuz my heart is just embedded with confusion...
i really don't know...

depression... sorrow.... crestfallen... heart broken....helplessness

perhaps these words is the key for what i feel rite now
Maybe a deep understanding of these words tells me where do the shattered pieces lie ...
cuz i have to find the shattered pieces just to rebuild back my old self
indeed no one is happy all of the time,
but i just don't wanna be like some people who... feel as if they can never find happiness and love thru dis depression
i keep telling myself..
i just need to rebuild my old self just to feel there was something once,
perhaps love was just meant to break my heart....

A poem that is simply a mournful cry to the heavens, in search of the remnants of a broken heart.

Seek Not My Heart

Oh gentle winds 'neath moonlit skies,
Do not you hear my heartfelt cries?

Below the branches, here about,
Do not you sense my fear and doubt?
Side glistening rivers, sparkling streams,
Do not you hear my woeful screams?

Upon the meadows, touched with dew,
Do not you see my hearts a'skew?
Beneath the thousand twinkling stars,
Do not you feel my jagged scars?

Seek not my mournful heart kind breeze,
For you'll not find it 'mongst these trees.

It's scattered 'cross the moonlit skies,
Accompanied by heartfelt sighs.
It's drifting o're the gentle rain,
A symbol of my silent pain.

It's buried 'neath the meadow fair,
Conjoined with all the sorrow there.
It's lost among the stars this night,
Too far to ease my quiet fright.

No gentle winds, seek not my heart,
For simply ... it has torn apart.

by Kit McCallum

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berdetik rs hati ini untuk beku selamanya..

entah mengapa titisan jernih mengalir

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kerna kau terlalu istimewa..

Was it a feelings

For so long... i never feel this kind of feelings. People don't always feel the same way about us, as we feel about them.
It's not a crime, just only human nature. It is who we are. We all know this of course, but we also know the hurt that comes when the feelings aren't shared ones.

i wonder why i felt this feelings always linger in my heart .. held and bound deeply to my heart. As it i was born with it.
Even so.. I'm hoping this feelings would go away.

Sometimes, the feelings i feel for them were never return...
Honestly, it does break my heart
it makes the tears want to flow from my eyes and I feel that my heart,along with my composure, slowly dies.
yet I still be waiting even until the end for the feelings to be return..
i just hope i could stand and hold on to the pain of waiting....

just because of one reason.....i love them